So you may have noticed that I haven't posted here in a while... a really long time in fact, it has been september since I last posted. In september I made the rather quiet decision to take a break from this bubble for many reasons & I just closed down the writer in me until I felt a time that I wanted to come back. And I've wanted to be back, for a while... but I got a little bit too scared to do so. I've been scared a lot recently actually and managing that fear has made me hermit away from things that I really love- including blogging.
I think it would be easy to say that I have been busy (which I really have, balancing a degree, a full time job and a social life is more than a task in itself without devoting many hours a week to keeping up a strong online presence) or that I have had writers block (also true, so far this small amount of words has taken some serious work to write down). But actually I think that I sort of gave up, it is easy for life to get over whelming and get the better of us and I think this autumn it definitely got the better of me. I don't have a demanding job by any stretch of the imagination but since september it has been very busy and at times hasn't been the most pleasant of experiences. I've felt a bit down trodden and with that you always end up doubting yourself. I definitely doubted my ability to do 'this', as well as my ability to do a lot of other things. All the self assurance that I previously had seems to have got very shaky recently and I have felt lost and confused and as a result putting my face and my voice and my opinion here seemed too difficult to do.
I'm scared that no one will listen to me anymore, but I am not going to give up. I think more than ever, I need my friends that I have gained as a result of blogging and the only way that I can keep that connection is by starting to write again. I am going to try my hardest to put aside my insecurities on my ability to write or my uncertainty on the validity of my opinions and just keep doing what I love.
Saying that, I am planning on shifting up the content slightly. I will still post reviews of products and I am not changing that but I will be chucking other stuff in. Also who loves youtube? because I really do so I will try and do more on there. Any suggestions would be really great on other stuff I could do, I really am scared about starting this again but high on anticipation on what I can do with this space.
I have some posts planned for the coming weeks, I hope I still have some readers left.